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My Secret by bedroomgrafitti, literature

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My Secret

Feeling so alone, everyday my distance is farther, The ones I love watching me fade awy, Tears in my mothers eyes, Rips me apart. I want to say sorry. But I can't bring myself to do so. Is it my fault I'm this way? I'm on my own, Living in this world so alone. The feelings and thoughts are so intense. They push me farther away Deeper and deeper, Till I'm 50 feet underground, in my new home. A small wooden box, And I'm still alone. So many things I want everyone to know. But I can't the memory in my mind, Is driving me to death. My mother needs to know, What happened that night. This secret is killing me, making me feel

Constant Paranoia by bedroomgrafitti, literature

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Constant Paranoia

I hear footsteps, I shiver, A chair scraped on the floor, I jump and scream. I go about my day, With only one thought on my mind, What has happened to me? I'll awake from this nightmare soon. Yet the feelings get stronger. Thinking of him, Vomit flows up my throat. My hands and body start to shake, I can't calm the,. Remembering... My head pounds. I feel like someone beat up my insides. I can't sleep, Barely eat. I awake crying, thinking I'm there. Back in the place of hell. Yet my mind won't let me remember, What truly happened. These thoughts must be real, But they can't be. Me? Living every second in regret. Kno

In Love With Death by bedroomgrafitti, literature

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In Love With Death

Ever since you left me, I've carried myself better, Smiled more, and made more friends. But if only you and everyone knew, On the inside what I'm going through. I'll let you have a look, It's deep razor cuts, Broken promises, and suicidal thoughts. I feel theres no real happiness left inside me. And it's not just what you've done, It's everyone, Everyones there, But I've turned my back. I don't want you all to see. The tears, the slits, the thoughts, the screaming for death. It's calling my name, and I'm replying. With every slit, burn, drug. I feel it coming closer. It's so soothing, so comforting. I've never wanted a

Dont Look into These Blue Eyes by bedroomgrafitti, literature

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Dont Look into These Blue Eyes

Please don't look... I know you don't want to see, I have no care in it, But you won't be pleased. If you have the strength, the power Take a look into these blue eyes. You won't see tears, You won't see my fears, What will you see? Look a bit closer... See the razor sharp edges, See my black broken heart. One thing you'll never see is, Happiness, hope, sadness, anger. I have none of those, For I am emotionless. My eyes are chained gateways to my soul. My black hollow shattered soul. Once you start to looking you'll never be able to stop. My eyes are the key, The key to my life, love, emotion. But those are what I live

I Hate... by bedroomgrafitti, literature

Memories Are Killing Me by bedroomgrafitti, literature

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Memories Are Killing Me

These memories they still remain, Held closely in my heart, Slowly ripping it apart. Everyday i die more, Everyday your farther from me. Looking back trying to make myself realize, Your not worth anything. But you are, You mean so much to me, And it hurts, To know im nothing to you. I'm only a fling, In which you regret. I'm completely wiped away from your memory. I mean nothing to you, And I never will again. I'd rather fucking kill myself, than hear you speak those words. To realize everything was a lie.. And you knew it all along...

The Distance by bedroomgrafitti, literature

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The Distance

This distance between us, It locks our hearts, Not knowing which way to look, How to feel, If these feelings are even real. Were unable to be together, But I feel so close to you, Your miles from me, But I feel you near. I hold on to your every word. Wondering when I'll hear them again. Remembering our last time together, Every touch, Every kiss, Wondering if they were our last. Trying to stay together, Trying to remember. Its to much for us to do, But I'll never stop, Cause your everything to me. I'll drive all those miles, Just to feel you near.

Her pain... by bedroomgrafitti, literature

As I Die... by bedroomgrafitti, literature

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As I Die...

Will you hold me close to your heart, Wipe my tears all away. Give me one last kiss, As I slowly slip away. Will you tell me it will be okay, When the pills take over my body, Will you hold me tight, As the pain is escaping. Will you whisper, Anything to make me smile. Just one last time. Will you be there holding my life, When I am pronounced dead, Will you cry just one tear. When you are remembering me. Will you kiss me one last time, Before I'm locked away. Will you whisper goodbye, As I am lowered underground. Will you think of me, As you lay yourself to sleep. Knowing I took my life, For the love I felt for you.

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As I Die... by bedroomgrafitti, literature

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The Distance by bedroomgrafitti, literature

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Memories Are Killing Me by bedroomgrafitti, literature

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Memories Are Killing Me

I Hate... by bedroomgrafitti, literature

Dont Look into These Blue Eyes by bedroomgrafitti, literature

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In Love With Death by bedroomgrafitti, literature

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In Love With Death

Constant Paranoia by bedroomgrafitti, literature

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Constant Paranoia

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Canada
Deviant for 18 years
www.lindsaysmith.iwarp.com
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Current Residence: Ontario
Favourite genre of music: emo, screamo, post hardcore
Favourite photographer: Many
Personal Quote: Dance like no one's watching

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Many

Favourite Movies

Grind, Lords or Dogtown

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

TBS, A7X, MCR, Senses Fail, Thursday, Across Five Aprils, Underoath, Thrice, Silverstein

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Many

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Tony Hawks Pro Skater

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poetry, music, writting music, guitar

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bedroomgrafitti

Jan 23, 2006

goodbye...

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goodbye, old friend, goodbye, goodnight ill move on youll call it fate, ill call it karma weve had our time , it was fun, while it lasted ill look back, with honour, and no regrets

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bedroomgrafitti

Jan 23, 2006

I Hate....

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I hate myself. I hate that I'm alive. I hate that I lost you. I hate that I'm a failure. I hate that I'm nothing to you. I hate that your all I think about. I hate that I can never cut deep enough to forget you. I hate that I'm not dead. I hate that I'm everything that I hate.

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Jan 23, 2006

Stab me in the heart...

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You acted like nothings fucking wrong, I act like I've already moved on. You fucking lied to me, Tricked me to believe it all. You lead me on, Till you were bored of me. Now I read these things you've wrote before, It makes me sick to my stomach. Stabs me in the fucking heart. You never let go, You still fucking loved her, So you stole a bit of mine. Hoping you would be better after, Then you werent mine, And what happened to me happened. That night was not your fault. And everyone says it was not mine. Why would you lead me to believe. So many fucking lies left your lips. Now you want to be friends with benefits Well you